Family expectations

This particular artwork has a very special meaning for me, as it clearly represents my mental state as a teenager who is expected to be extraordinary. Someone who parents can be proud of. Its name is a symbol of me being critical of myself and represents my greatest fear: to disappoint my family; people who clearly gave me everything. So, to represent everything important to me in this drawing I chose a few pictures that I took by myself. 
The first photo shows a girl sitting on a children's slide and looking into the distance. This is my close friend and neighbor who has done a lot for me. On the day the photo was taken, there was a snowstorm, and we decided to take a walk to assess the "scale of the disaster." It was one of the most fun days, I was able to feel like a child once in a long time. Despite all these positive aspects, the main reason why I chose this particular photo is the position of the girl in the frame. Since in order to convey the loneliness of the main character, a special position of the focal point is needed.  In this case, we can notice that the main focus is directed to the center and slightly shifted to the left, leaving a sufficiently large amount of free space, which just allows you to create the illusion of a non-decisive, lonely little man.
The second photo inspired me with the amount of colour and light contrasts in the night sky. It was made in the first minutes of the new year when my friends and I came running to watch the fireworks. These unforgettable sensations add even more significance to these wonderful periods of colour brightness. Since not have a reference in front of me, it is too difficult to convey such an effect for a novice artist, I chose this particular photo.
And the third photo I took is a cluster of trees under the first snow. The first snow gave the branches of the trees a special expressive contour, creating an interesting graphic contrast, which I tried to convey in my work. In my opinion, trees are a rather elegant element of nature, and the reason why I chose this photo is quite simple; I chose it as an aesthetic reference to understand what exactly I want to get in the end.
The rest of the photos in the collage allow me to see other sources of my inspiration and are undoubtedly just as important. To be honest, on the night when I made this collage, I dreamed of my future work and at that moment I really felt like a surrealist artist, since their creativity is based on ideas taken from the transitional sleep phases, when you can't distinguish fiction from reality.
The work itself represents my vision of what is happening in my life at the moment. The centre of attention is undoubtedly a neon-yellow flaming skeleton in a T-shirt and sneakers, which is undoubtedly the personification of my soul. So bright and attention-grabbing, there is no less always one, sitting in the fetal position personifying sadness and suffering from loneliness. I seem to be trying to stand out, attract attention and be in the circle of friends, but in my soul I always feel incredibly lonely, and this feeling devours me from the inside. The contrast is created through the use of alcohol markers and graphic techniques, and the simplified anatomy makes the skeleton more pleasant to perceive.
The next place where the gaze of the beholder is directed is the phone camera, hovering in place of the moon. She represents the pressure of social networks on me, because you can't go online without seeing a person who is taller, prettier and more talented than you. It's annoying and frustrating, but given the vastness of the media space, this phenomenon will follow us every day, just like the moon, surfacing at night with unpleasant thoughts.
Of course, the key detail of this work is the tree with eyes, personifying my family. Family tree, everyone is closely watching your actions, occasionally scaring them that you will easily disgrace them. This tree was the first thing I actually started working with, because it is the most elaborate in terms of contrasts and detail. Illuminated by a flaming skeleton, it is strewn with neon reflexes and reflections, which allows you to perceive the whole picture more holistically.
This is the full description of my surreal work, which is my cry of the soul and introspection of my actions.